heys ! i'm online again =D haas . think i'm addicted to blogging =D it sort of feels good to just type away about my thoughts ... thought most of the time i'm crapping =D anyways .

- 12 oCt o5 -

got a big shock when i saw him on the bus when i was getting off ... sort of like ... ignored him . feel guilty . felt so weird the whole day when i saw him loh .

the guys had hair check . so many people got caught . could see stacks of ez-link cards with patrick tong and joseph lee . they asked a barber to come and shave their hair 0.0

went to change for pe before going for recess . my super comfortable dry-fit house tee ! haas . then found out that pe would resume next monday -_- stoned at the grand stand for awhile grumbling over how bad my day was . then took out my alice 19th =D haas . played tennis for awhile till i couldn't stand it [ i don't know whether it was the heat or the boredom from not playing a proper game or the inability to play a proper game or something else ] went back to the grand stand to continue reading my alice 19th =D then went to the canteen . was zombie-ing around . haas . then was trying to avoid him [ the same him mentioned above ] though i didn't really need to try . hais .

went for physics lecture . low seow boon went through paper 1 questions which more than half of the cohort couldn't do . i got 19/30 [ own calculation . kwek said we will only get back our papers next wednesday ] okay bahs ... got improvement from mock exam . quite satisfied though it's not good enough . have to study real hard during the holidays le . he finished within half an hour loh ! but had to stay back for sdp camp meeting -_-

actually wanted to go out to eat , but the sky looked threatening so we changed our mind . haas . they went to borrow board games from the student council -_- went for the short sdp meeting . going to have a land expedition on 22 oCt to make up for the orienteering expedition of the camp 'cause it rained . beautiful memories . guess things will never be the same . took bus home . been so long since i took bus home ! haas . felt so good to reach home so early . slept for 2 hours i think =P

oh yahs . saw my mr. one in a million . wasn't expecting to see him lohs . just glad to see him lahs =]

- 13 oCt o5 -

took the same bus as him again [ shall not write what i saw because it would give a big hint as to who he is . was just very shocked to see him ] guess i will never be able to avoid him . saw *wanxuan and chatted with her for awhile . it was nice talking to her =] so great to have such a nice senior =] then *juat suddenly pop out from nowhere . lols . went to see the career seminar sign-up form . saw his hp no . haas . wanted to store it away in my phone =D but like no use . oh wells .

had pw . haas . think our maths results are okay ... hope to get it back real soon loh . then no need to worry about it le . cpt made us join mathlympiad . hais . going to flop it . weird groupings ... going to have oral presentation rehersals next week 0.0 hope everything goes well lah .

went through some of the questions for chemistry paper 2 . they couldn't give us back our papers so we had to copy everything lah . idiotic . couldn't really finish copying everything . but i like my handwriting . quite neat =] haas . have to practise writing more so that my words will be legible during exams . had fmaths in lt . something negative happened . don't know whether it was just me or what . hais .

got back chinese paper . my paper 1 is terrible ... 55% only . failed the content . somebody help me ! please don't tell me to read more chinese books . or watch more chinese programmes . books are boring . programmes are far-fetched . hais . but must say i'm quite satisfied with my paper 2 . 72.5% . though i failed my comprehension again . hais . hate chinese more and more . but at least my hard work paid off lah . overall [ after adding 10% listening comprehension and 20% oral which i got 16 ] my grade is a b3 . oh wells . i'm not far away from an a2 . but i'm afraid that my actual oral isn't good . hais . hope for the best bah .

went to the library to do pw with irene . read joy luck club . all thanks to irene who remembered the title of the book =] haas . have so much to read ! i'm going to become a bookworm =D

haas . speaking of being a bookworm ... i wore my new glasses to school today . think i looked weird =X yinghui said they make my eyes look smaller . calvin said i look like a particular squirrel which he couldn't remember the name of . lols .

saw mr tay [ vp ] get into his red tuscani . super nice car ! love it to bits =D was saying how nice his car was when ong chin chin suddenly walked past and announced that his car cost $100 000 . wow . which means the yellow tuscani and the black tuscani must cost around that figure too . no wonder i don't see a lot of that brand around . someone buy me a tuscani ! [ haas . a model will do lah ]

going to have career seminar and farewell assembly tomorrow . no lessons at all ! which means no pw =D but don't know whether it's a good or bad thing . still have to rush out our written report and op . think we should be fine bah . going to healthcare / research talk alone . hope there will be something relevant if not i will regret signing up for the talk . and speaking of the farewell assembly ... it means that i won't get to see my mr. one in a million for ever ... well . going for twisted [ a puppet show by the finger players ] tomorrow . hope everything turns our fine [ though i seriously doubt it would ] i think i am suffering from some sort of depression .

* still zombie stef . i guess i'll never be humanified until i figure out what it is exactly that i feel . or am i just super indifferent ?

* they don't deserve it . or maybe just her . well . i do . i was the only one who remembered .

* solitaire . or independent . or just anti-social ?

* him . again . seeing him has become an agony for me ...

* HATE . a simple , four-letter word . just like LOVE . yet , they mean so different things ...

* sighing has become a habit for me . i sigh about everything . i'm going to become old sooner than i would like to .

* ignoring people has also become a habit for me . forgive me if i happen to ignore you . that is if i ever talk to you . just ignore me for awhile if you will ? just for a little while ...

realised that writing online is actually not very good , because if you want to express your unhappiness at someone or something caused by someone , the whole world gets to read it [ including him / her ] so ... please don't expect to read clear strong negative feelings directed at people here [ unless perhaps they are teachers or strangers ] wish i could get it all off my chest so that it would all disappear .