i guess i was right not to be optimistic .

because history has repeated itself .

even though he was so much like him . even though he said he will disappear . i didnt want to believe things will turn out this way .

but they did .

right now it seems that i will never be able to forget him . the things he said . the things he did .

i cant believe i cried until my eyes were swollen .

i cant believe i miss him so much .

please tell me this isnt how it was meant to be .

why so soon ?

):

i still have so much more to say . but i dont know how . i guess . i just want him back .

at least i can still smile . because she called .

thank you for being part of my life (:

i wonder why he means so much to me .