okays . think a lot of people have received letters from universities . i 'm guessing smu doesn 't want me . but that still leaves me with two choices .

wonder how long i 'll take to make my mind up . met nice people at the hss tea party . saw familiar faces . chatted with some . seems like most of us are still undecided . why is fass day so far away ?

sometimes i wonder why i try . repeatedly . some people change . but some just don 't . they don 't realise how terrible i see them to be .

maybe those who hurt you the most are really those who are the closet to you . the ones who are supposed to mean the most .