i'd better update about this before i forget to .

well . the main point is i've been dreaming about someone . someone i gave up . i want to tell him but i cant . because i tried talking to him and it was disappointing . there was no connection . why did the seemingly right thing happen at the wrong time ?

and when i had already given up . i dreamt of him again . the dream was ... warm . heartwarming maybe ? i dont know .

i think i'm going to regret posting this ):